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Mon Sep 26, 2016, 6:44 PM
I'm... pretty good, actually. 

You want to know what I just did? Well, first, after work I... wow, I think I spent three hours marathoning Parks & Rec, which helped my mood a bit. 

Laughter is the best medicine. It was the balm I needed I soothe my soul. 

Afterwards, I... took a hot shower, rolled out my old yoga mat... and meditated. I practised on clearing my mind of all distractions, all thoughts, breathing in and out... 

And it had occurred to me that this---what I was doing---would be essentially what might happen after I die. Peace, independent of sensation, good or ill. Yet, somehow, it was... more comforting than I had ever given it credit for. 

I want to live for as long as possible... but I shouldn't fear what comes after. On the one hand, even if it's nothing... energy can neither be destroyed nor created. The information that comprises me will "reset," become one with all things... perhaps my matter will be reconstituted into new life, like recycling data into some other shape. 

That isn't really so awful. 

And on the other hand... hey, who knows what might happen? Heaven, reincarnation, different universe entirely if we believe certain quantum theories of life and death (which are fascinating)... and I'd be lying if I said every NDE story doesn't give me a sliver of hope about what might happen.

But for now, I'll play it by ear. I can't let this rule me or crush my life. I'm still young. I have my whole life ahead of me and I intend to live as long as I can, love the people I love and leave as many happy memories in my wake as possible. This little "thing" might never go away, true, but it'll be a minor nuisance. It will not be the god of me. 

Meditation will be my means of combating, overcoming... and making peace with it. I feel it's already working. It's a step. 

... And by God, do I feel so much better about myself. 

I'm going to be okay. I'm sure of it. 

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Vailence Featured By Owner 3 days ago  New Deviant Professional Artisan Crafter
Thank you so much for the favorite! :heart:
GamemasterFel Featured By Owner 3 days ago
My pleasure, you make a beautiful cosplayer!
Vailence Featured By Owner 3 days ago  New Deviant Professional Artisan Crafter
haha thank you so much!!! I work hard on my costumes as well! haha
GamemasterFel Featured By Owner 3 days ago
It's a cool theme! Are you gonna do other Eevee evolutions as cute D&D-inspired classes?
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CaptainKharma Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Professional General Artist
Thanks a lot for the fav ! It's really really cool ! You can also +watch my page and ask comissions :#1:
Faving fun :hooray:
AmuChiiHinamori Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the :+fav:

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MevrouwRoze Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav!
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GamemasterFel Featured By Owner 5 days ago
No problem! I love Hamilton and it's always nice to see some fanart around here!
Gotetho Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016
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GamemasterFel Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016
You're welcome!
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